2013. február 3., vasárnap

Int. GYARU Lovers Winter Meet in Düsseldorf ^^

Hey guys!

Finally I can take my time to write about the meet in Düsseldorf ~ And this will be my first blogpost in two languages, so that's why it took me a week xDD As ome of u may know, we had a lot of problems organizing our trip, and we ended up going with different airline, different plane and a different way. For me, it wasn't so pleasant cuz I had to wake up at 3 am. I was still very sick , and I woke up by myself around 1 am, and I couldn't sleep again. So I started my journey with ca. 2 hours of sleep. At the airport, I couldn't decide if I feel sick because I'm nervous, or because of the virus. I somehow got myself in the waiting hall so I just should have sat there, but I couldnt, cuz I still had to go to the toilet to give out the NOTHING I ate the past days. All I was telling myself was to not to faint. On the way to Berlin I managed to sleep through the whole flight so after that I felt a lot better ^-^

Sziasztok!:D Végre eljutottam odáig, hogy írjak a düsseldorf-i meetről, és nagyon fura két nyelven írni xD Hosszú időbe telt mire rávettem magam, mert tudtam, hogy hosszú lesz :D Szóval, páran láthattátok a facebookomon, hogy nem kevés problémánk volt az utazás szervezésével, szinte minden rosszul ment ami csak mehetett, szóval az lett a vége, hogy külön utaztunk, más időpontban, más légitársasággal. Én Berlinen keresztül mentem, Sziszi pedig egyenes Düsseldorfba, pár órával utánam. Hajnali 3.-kor kellett kelnem, ami nagyon nem tetszett, mert csütörtök hajnaltól iszonyatosan beteg lettem (bármit ettem, 5 perc múlva jött ki), és nem is tudtam normálisan aludni sem. A repülőtéren már az idegesség is hozzájött a rosszulléthez, úgyhogy még miközben a repülőre vártam, mentem kihányni a semmit T.T Csak arra figyeltem,hogy ne ájuljak el, mert akkor aztán senki sem kapart volna fel a földről. a berlini repcsin szinte az egész utat átaludtam, és utána már sokkal jobban voltam :3




I had only 40 minutes at Berlin Tegel, so after I got off the first plane, I was running looking for the next one xD There was no problem so I easily found it. Finally, after I arrived at Düsseldorf International Airport, my torture started XD I had to wait 6 hours til Sziszi arrived, I was supposed to have a meeting but the girl couldn't come T.T So I was alone, exhausted, bored, with a low phone battery, seriously I was about to die XD And it was only 10 am!! XD But then, she finally showed up *-*

Nagyjából 40 percem volt megtalálni a berlini reptéren a düsseldorfi gépet, úgyhogy kicsit szedtem a lábam, de minden gond nélkül meglett :D Miután megérkeztem Düsseldorfba, azután kezdődött a fincsi része a dolognak :D  Sziszi csak 6 órával később érkezett, és nekem halvány lila gőzöm nem volt, hogy mit csinálhatnék XD Egyedül voltam, rohadt fáradtan, unatkoztam és még a telefonom is merülőben volt XD Pedig még csak reggel 10 volt :D De aztán végre megérkezett *-*

babe was landingggg *-* I've never been this happy in my life XDDDDD

waiting .. TT
So Sziszi got her stuff, and we went looking for the train ~ We seriously had no idea where to go XD But actually there was only one train going in one direction (LOL XD) so a lady told us to go with that one ~ We bought tickets (there was no need for it though XDD) and headed to Düsseldorf *-*

Miután Sziszi megtalálta a bőröndjét, elmentünk megkeresni a vonatot ~ Csak éppen fogalmunk sem volt, hogy merre menjünk XD De aztán kiderült, hogy csak egy vonat van ott egyetlen irányba, és egy nő útba is igazított minket :D (Totál feleslegesen) megvettük a jegyeinket, és elindultunk a város feléé ~~




Finding the hotel was also a short time, there where a lot of people wanting to help us XDD We found it after 10 minutes though ~ It was my first time doing stuff like this for myself but the receptionist was reeally nice ~ And the hotel was so pretty too ^^ It was a good choice ~ *-* we also got some candies placed on our pillows! x3

A hotel megtalálása is beletelt egy kis időbe, de volt egy pár ember, aki segíteni akart nekünk, látva hogy milyen kétségbeesetten markolásszuk a kis nyomtatott térképünket amin semmilyen utcanév nem volt kb XDDD De 10-15 perc után meg is lett ~ Sosem csináltam még ilyesmit egyedül, de nagyon kedves volt a recepciós és a hotel is nagyon tetszett nekünk *-* A párnánkon még cukorkák is voltak ! :D 

dat view though XDDD
We were really tired, so we just went out to get some drinks and went to sleep around 9-10 XDD
I still couldnt eat, only some little sweet snacks that were LITERALLY the ONLY thing that stayed in my stomach. I was praying so hard that this would fade away fro the next day T____T

Nagyon fáradtak voltunk, úgyhogy csak egy kis innivalóért mentünk le egy boltba, és 9-10 körül már aludtunk is XD Én még mindig nem tudtam enni, csak háztartási kekszet, mert ez volt szószerint az egyetlen dolog, ami nem akart kijönni belőlem. De a harmadik nap után már nagyon kezdtem unni...

Le Mainstation


And the day of the meet finally came! We woke up at 9 to have breakfast at the hotel, and I was so happy because I had toast with cheese and I felt totally okay *_______*
But although we woke up pretty early (meet was at 2 pm) somehow we ended up hurrying and worrying if we get there in time (we were only like 100 m away though XDD) I wasn't happy with my hair at all T___T But I was happy with my outfit and makeup. People were staring at us like hell! Maybe because we were wearing our masks again... hahaha

És végre elérkezett a meet napja! Kilenckor keltünk, hogy meg tudjunk reggelizni a hotelben. Nagyon örültem mert sajtos toastot ettem és nem jött ki *___* De annak ellenére, hogy korán keltünk (a meet 2kor kezdődött) , a végén már sietnünk kellett és pánikoltunk, hogy el fogunk késni XD A hajam elég borzalmasan sikerült, de a ruhámmal és a sminkemmel elégedett voltam :3 Csak az utcán nagyon bámultak az emberek, lehet a maszkok miatt... :D

Le outfit shot in the bathroom XD

lovely background

We were so excited and also nervous as we were walking to the station XD And then we saw Sascha running towards us!! Yaaaay ~ He was so cute x3 We couldn't say much though cuz we were really shy in the beginning XD More and more people were coming and they were super pretty ;_____; It was so weird, that the people I was looking at in pictures were standing in front of me :D We introduced ourselves to a few girls too :3 And suddenly while we were talking to each other, a girl appeared next to us and asked "Did you come from Hungary?" IN HUNGARIAN OwO My heart was about to stop XDDDD Turned out she was born in Germany and lived in Munich since then, but she's Hungarian. wow!!!!!!:D I absolutely did not expect this to happen XD She was wearing my favourite d.i.a. belt *___*

Nagyon izgatottak és idegesek voltunk miközben sétáltunk az állomás felé XD Megálltunk mert én cigiztem, és aztán egyszercsak feltűnt Sascha! :D (az egyik szervezője a meetnek) Annyira aranyos volt ahogy megölelt minket meg minden x3 Nem beszéltünk sokat mert nagyon zavarban voltunk XD Egyre több ember érkezett idővel és mind gyönyörűek voltak ;____; Annyira fura volt, hogy az emberek akiknek a képeit nézegettem már egy ideje, ott álltak előttem :D Aztán csak úgy beszélgettünk ketten, amikor feltűnt egy lány mellettünk és megkérdezte MAGYARUL,hogy "Magyarországról jöttetek?" Azt hittem szívinfarktust kapok XD Kiderült, hogy ő magyar, csak kint született és azóta is Münchenben él :3 Err aztán nem számítottam XD De a kedvenc d.i.a. övem volt rajta *___* jó ízlés ! :D

group pic! made by: Binh !

The three Hungarians! :D  Me, Sziszi and Rin :3
After everyone arrived we decided to go to eat first, cuz there were too many people doing purikura, haha ~ The restaurant we went to was called Naniwa ~ The weather was soooooo cold!! And we had to wait a lot to get in the restaurant ;_____; But at least we had enough time to talk, haha ~ We were so happy when we could sit down in the warm x3

Miután mindenki megérkezett a mi kis csoportunk először enni ment, mert túl sok ember volt aki purikurát csinált először. A Naniwa nevű étterembe mentünk ~ És nagyoooon hideg volt ;___; És nagyon sokat vártunk, mire bejutottunk az étterembe ;__; De legalább volt elég időnk ismerkedni, miközben szenvedtünk x3 Amikor végre leültünk a melegben, szerintem nem éreztem még ilyen megkönnyebbülést x3

my ramen *-*
The ramen I ordered was a HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGE bowl of seafood noodle soup, Ive never seen this big of a bowl in my life x3 I couldnt even finish it ;___; But I wasn't sick after! *-* After food we went to the Japanese store to take puris ~ So crowded! XD I feel stupid cuz I didnt take pics with people ;_____; But I was shy ;___; Anyways, I dont have any of the puris T___T We somehow forgot it! TT

Egy óóóóóóóóóóóóóriási tál ramen rendeltem, nem tudtam hogy ez ekkora lesz XD Te nagyon fincsi tengeri herkentyűs volt *-* De mégsem tudtam az egészet megenni, a tészta nagy része ott maradt ;-; DE! Legalább nem voltam rosszul utána *-* Kaja után mentünk purikurázni :3 Alig lehetett mozdulni a boltban x3 Olyan rosszul érzem magam mert nem csináltam szinte senkivel sem képet ;___; Egy darab puri képet sem kaptam, mert elfelejtettük de megbeszéltünk, hogy valahogy megoldjuk :D

Me, Maria and Jojo <3

with Rin again <3

Editing our puris, my head so light and blurry XDD Pic again by Binh

Some people had to leave so early T___T But I was very happy to meet them ~~ After puris we went back to the hotel to change for the night part of the meet 8DDD Since it was etremely cold, I changed to jeans ~ (People told and even asked if thats d.i.a. so I was happy x33 But it isn't!) We went to a place called El Paso! Was really nice ^___^ when I got my tequila I ordered the spanish people started to cheer for me SO LOUD and the others joined too, even they didnt know what the hell was going on XDDD So I just drank the shot and everyone was happy XD Same happened with Sziszi cuz she had tequila too x33

Többen korán mentek és nem maradtak partyzni T____T De nagyon örülte, hogy megismerhettem őket ~ Purikura után visszamentünk a hotelbe, hogy átöltözzünk az estére ~ Iszonyatosan hideg volt, úgyhogy én a farmer mellett döntöttem ~ Többen is kérdezték, hogy d.i.a.-e, úgyhogy elégedett voltam x3 Egy El Paso nevű helyre mentünk, ilyen mexikói az egész :3 Tequilát rendeltem először, és amikor a spanyolok meglátták, elkezdtek kiabálni rohadt hangosan, hogy IDD MEG IDD MEG és végül az egész terem nekem ordított, pedig felük nem is tudta miről van szó XD De milyen üdvrivalgás volt miután megittam XD Ugyan ez volt Sziszinek is ~

Binh took awesome pics of us XDDD

After drinking we ended up going to a karaoke bar ~ It was okay, we stayed out really long, but I was so tired around 6 am, that I didnt even want to talk TT We said goodbye to everyone and went back to the hotel, and slept *---* The next day we talked to Sascha and Jojo, so we met up, and went to eat sushi ~ After that some of us wanted to eat some sweets and there was a Japanese cafe-like thing, so we went there ~ We had some green tea sweets *www* Some friends joined us too ~  Sziszi and I were really hyper so we wanted to go drinking again ~ Sascha and Jojo joined us, haha ~ We went to a pub called Che Guevara, had a few drinks and then we went to El Paso again cuz we were hungry x3 After that, Sascha and Jojo had to leave T__________T I hate goodbyes! T____T But we had to separate, blah T_T So we continued the night without them ~ It was nice though :3



Az alapozás után végül egy karaoke bárba mentünk :3 Jó volt, nagyon sokáig maradtunk, de hajnali 6 körül már beszélni sem volt kedvem, sem erőm TT Elköszöntünk mindenkitől, és mentünk a hotelbe alukálni *-* Másnap megbeszéltünk Saschával és Jojo-val hogy találkozunk :3 Elmentünk sushizni *w* Ezután valamilyen édességet akartak enni a többiek, úgyhogy elmentünk egy japán kávézó-szerűségbe. Zöld teás aprósütit ettünk *-* De nagyon szépen fel volt tálalva, ahhoz képest, hogy a srác egy zacskóból vette ki őket először XD Néhány ember tegnapról csatlakozott hozzánk, annyira aranyosak voltak *___* Sziszivel megint inni akartunk, úgyhogy unszoltuk a többieket, de csak Sascha és Jojo tudtak velünk jönni T___T Először egy Che Guevara nevű pubba mentünk, azután átmentünk az El Pasóba mert éhesek lettünk x3 Ezután nekik menniük kellett, úgyhogy ketten maradtunk Sziszivel T____T Utálok búcsúzkodni, remélem hamar találkozunk megint TT Nélkülük folytattuk az éjszakát, és viccesre sikerült :3

food *-*

lol ok xD


Me and Jojooo ~~
Tequila Sunrise \(^o^)/

<3

food at El Paso *-*
We had the first proper breakfast the next day, and also the fastest morning, cuz we had to leave the hotel til 11 am ~ Fortunately it was allowed to leave the baggage there ~ We decided to finally do some shopping since most of the places were closed on Sunday ~ So we just spent the rest of our money XDD We went to the same place to have sushi again! *-* We also wanted to do some sightseeing but it started to rain so.... TT We bought nice things! *-* mostly food x3

Az első kiadós, rendes reggelink volt hétfőn, és egyben a leggyorsabb készülődésünk is, mert 11re el kellett hagynunk a hotelt ~ Szerencsére a bőröndöket ott hagyhattuk. A vásárlás mellett döntöttünk, mert a legtöbb bolt vasárnap zárva volt. Amikor megéheztünk, megint sushizni mentünk, ugyanarra a helyre ^^ Várostnézni is akartunk, de eleredt az eső, úgyhogy maradt a shopping TT

cute x3

shrimp art x3

*-*


Calpis and some green tea latte *wwww*

Stopped to do my makeup cuz I didnt even have time for that, LOL

 Sadly the time came for us to go home T___T We decided to go to the airport a bit earlier, cuz we didn't have anything to do in the city T_T we somehow found the train and went to the airport. We took a pic of all the things we bought that day. lol

Végül elérkezett az idő, hogy elinduljunk hazafelé T_T Korábban mentünk a reptérre mint kellett volna, de már semmit sem tudtunk csinálni a városban.. Nagy nehezen meglett a vonat is :D A reptéren pedig összesítettük a dolgainkat amiket vettünk, és csináltunk róla képet :D

dayumm! Some sushi, Dragon Ball drinks, EGG magazines,mochi,phone charms,Instant miso, Dried squid,Calpis,Onigiri...
 Sziszi left earlier than me and I felt so sad alone T_____T I was about to cry, but then she called me and it faded away ~ we talked til she got on the plane ~ After that I was waiting alone again x3 While I was going through the safety control, the lady there opened my bag, and started looking at the Japanese stuff I bough.. She grabbed the green tea cakes, and said "Es ist Japanisch." (means this is Japanese.) I was like "You don't say??" XD There was also a guy who noticed the empty can of the Dragon Ball drink and started staring at it XD

Sziszi korábban ment, és nagyon szomorú lettem T___T Már sírtam, de aztán felhívott és addig beszélgettünk, ameddig fel nem szállt a gépre ~ De aztán megint egyedül voltam XD Éppen a biztonsági kapuknál voltam, és a nő aki ott volt kinyitotta a táskámat és elkezdett turkálni a cuccok között, amiket vettem :D Megtalálta a zöldteás sütiket (mert az volt a legnagyobb XD) és ennyi volt a reakciója németül persze "Ez japán". mondom most okosan mondtál XD a Dragon Ballos üdítős dobozra is aranyosan néztek XDD


felt like I was saying goodby forever T.T XDDDD

yumm ~

 I was really tired, so I was sleeping a bit on the plane, but I was so sad that I couldn't. XD
In Berlin, I somehow didnt find my phone and started panicking, and desperately looking for it. An old lady saw this next to me and asked "Was suchen Sie?" I just answered "Mein Handy" and she was laughing a bit, and said that it has to be somewhere there. Her face was priceless though when I started to talk on the phone in Hungarian XDD I guess she absolutely thought that Im German .___.
The next part of the journey was ok, I got in my room just a bit after midnight. I had exam on the next day, but I was so exhausted that I couldn't study...So I obviously failed...Again.

Eléggé fáradt voltam és megpróbáltam aludni a repülőn de nem sikerült, mert túlságosan szomorú voltam XD A berlini reptéren nem találtam a telefonom és iszonyatosan kétségbe estem ;; Egy öreg néni látta ezt és megkérdezte németül, hogy mit keresek, én válaszoltam, hogy a telefonom, és próbált nyugtatni, hogy biztos ott van valahol :D De nagyon vicces arcot vágott, amikor elkezdtem magyarul telefonálni x3 Az utazás többi része rendben volt, egy kicsivel éjfél után értem haza. Másnap vizsgám volt és szerettem volna még tanulni, de annyira fáradt voltam, hogy nem tudtam TT Szóval a bukás magától értetődő volt...

Berlin ~
It was really awesome to meet all those beautiful people!! Can't wait to meet again !!

I also wanted to write about the following days, but I guess this post is already long enough....:D Thanks if you came all the way down here !! :DDD
See you next time guys ~

I'm out ~

2013. január 13., vasárnap

My post about being skinny

Hey guys, again this day ~

I decided to write this post because I got this secret today:






I would not consider myself as someone who has real eating disorders, but yes, it's true that I used to (and maybe I still do) have problems with eating. NOT because I want to be skinny or anything like that. I'm basically really skinny. Even my parents don't weight more than 55 kg. Sometimes even I am scared of some pics of me, because I don't feel myself that skinny. The worst pics I could find, but I don't remember if they are one or two years old:


this one is actually really scary. This time I already wasn't okay with eating a lot, I had food max. 2 times a day
BUT. Please notice that I'm short. My height is 163 cm. My weight is currently 45 kg. (Just lost 2 kg = =)

The real problem started when I decided to become a vegetarian. (Don't ask the reasons please, It was a personal choice.) I have to say that it was hard, because we also had to make changes in the family (like making my own food , not just my parents', buying more stuff that I can eat too.) First, my parents wanted me to forget it and just eat meat again, so they didn't buy as many food for me, only meat. But I rejected, and rather didn't eat anything. They accepted it after a short time, and everything became quite okay, although I didn't eat properly. but it was still okay.
I was doing this for more than a half year. And that one week started.My body became so weak that I couldn't stand up without feeling dizzy, I couldn't really do anything, wasn't able to focus on anything, didn't really go anywhere. At that time, I've also been dealing with insomnia for a few months already, so it just made things worse. Maybe you remember some of my old posts, about going to the doc, and the EKG, and X-Ray stuff. Well, I got the vitamins, but I rejected all the doctors, and didn't go. I knew I was okay, so I didn't need any help. But my doctor told me that I HAVE TO start eating meat again, otherwise I can prepare for a long hospital visit. So now, I'm eating chicken meat. Sometimes more, sometimes less. Letting you guys know, that I'm okay ;) When I am asked why I don't eat even if I am hungry, my answer is "I don't feel like it." Weird, but true. I'm also a heavy smoker, so I don't feel hungry as often as other people. That's also a thing that makes things worse. eww

With all the negative things, I generally love being skinny. But I would love to be at least 48-49 kg. But I can't. Thats my problem.

If u have any questions, feel free to ask me ~ (:

I'm out ~

So tired... [pretty long post oo]

Hey guys!

Wow, I haven't been blogging for a month. So sorry for that ! T.T but before and after Christmas holidays, I had to (and still have to) prepare for exams, and I'm not doing too well.... Sometimes I just feel like this pressure is going to break me. I know that it's not high school anymore but I had a hard time there too. I started smoking a lot again, although I was happy during holidays that cutting down actually worked. But now, everything's just the same again....

ANYWAYS.

Quite a lot of things happened. Only 12 days, and we are flying to Düsseldorf. But seems like something is always going wrong. First, we wanted to book the tickets, as they were a lot cheaper like one month or two months ago, and it was all good, Sziszi transferred the money through the bank. But then, it turned out that the bank denied the whole thing, so we couldn't get the tickets. Soooo, we had to buy them for the 2x price -.-""" Because the prices already started to increase.
And now, we thought that everything is happy, we got our tickets, we got a hotel. Hhahahhahahahaha. no. Yesterday I was looking at the online tickets and I realized that Sziszi and her mother bought my tickets with another name O__O (note for foreigners: in Hungary, I have the nickname 'Dóri' which can be used as a shorter form of 'Dóra' and also of 'Dorottya') My name is Dorottya, and they bought the tickets for Dóra. FUCK. So now we are rearranging everything with the tickets and stuff.

But I'm still happy ^^ I got that d.i.a. cardigan for Christmas, and although it's a bit big, I love it! *-*

don't look at the background, it wasnt my flat XD


The day my cardigan arrived, I went to get my 3rd tattoo with Sziszi ~ It's just a small one but it was painful and bleeding like hell ;; I took a pic of it bleeding but I'm sure u don't want to see that XD

hehehe :3
Actually I was planning to get my next tattoo before Düsseldorf but I decided to buy some clothes instead XDD a d.i.a. jacket and my favourite belt *_______* I will meet up with the seller in Düsseldorf to get my items in person ~~ <3

New Year's Eve was also cool ~~ First, we wanted to spend it on the streets, but then my mum gave us  some plus money so we were able to go to the Asian party with out other friends ^^

this was our outfit for the night ^^ 
and my face ~
We went home pretty early ( 2 am ) but we started to drink around 7 pm and got to the party around 8, so it was exactly enough D: It wasn't so funny taking care of a few friends outside in the minuses with no warm stuff on anyways D: I got really sick a few days after.

Oh, and finally, we had our gyarusa meet! Unfortunately without Sziszi, because she got very ill T____________________________T It was really good, although we didn't have any plans about what to do so after some food, we ended up drinking XD (Chiyo knew it!! XD) I had so much fun, I love you all <3 Also , I got to know a new person thanks to the friends of my girls ~ And I feel so relaxed and happy when I'm with him ~







locked out XD
pretties <3



drunk me is drunk oo

movie time with my babe ~~~
That's all for now ^___^

I'm out ~